“I am getting to work on time, I will not lose my job. They will understand. Shit happens…right? I am not a robot! I had a long night, and I did wake up early. I need medication for this shit. It’s gonna be okay, just breath girl…no I mean woman, you passed the stage of girl a long time ago. Shit, maybe it is because I see myself as a girl…. SHUT UP! You have 2 minutes to get to work, and you are not going to make it. The reality, you are pulled over at the side of the road, and you are hyperventilating…take 2 puffs of your Asthma pump, say a pray, get back in your car, turn your music up loud, roll your fucking windows down and go to work. Worry about all the other stuff, when you get there.” If you are anything like me, you openly and aloud tell yourself, “Okay I can do this!”
Anxiety is interesting to me, because although I am aware it is entirely irrational, it allows me to accept the world I live in, is filled with uncertainty, which unfortunately my body doesn’t seem to like the notion of this prospect at all and shows up in the form of…you guessed it Anxiety. The only certainty I have, and I am made aware…Birth and Death…. that’s all. Everything else is chucked up to what we choose to do with the life we are giving, how we wish to endure life challenges, and who will we share the rollercoaster of life with…friends, a companion, an animal, solitude, God, etc.
Anxiety now has made itself a part of your life, and somehow you have to muster up enough courage to determine what position it plays in your life... in your family, begrudgingly. One thing I have learned, anxiety always show up when you trying to live your best life. It’s like the devil's cousin who doesn’t want you to be great. The voice you battle with or medicate. It is that family member that you ignore and somehow makes an appearance, and you are reminded why you don’t fuck with em’.
Anxiety…although classified and understood to be a bit irrational, it has real effects on our official bodies and minds. Let us be gentle with ourselves and realistically manage the silly family member that lives within.