Loving my mind...

Ondina Silvera Faith Healing mental wellness Mind Motivational

Loving Myself. 

Today is Friday, the end of my fasting period. It also happened to be Valentine's Day, the day for lovers. Ironically. Why? I am learning to love myself in a way that challenges me. I have to accept the spiritual experience that I am undergoing due to trauma. You see, it has been a long while since I have felt the presence of peace, and when I do, it is usually a burst of it, and then like the fog, it's thick, and then it simply disappears. The difference with fog, at least I know when it is coming, by way of the forecaster or someone telling me. Peace, however, is not like that. I have to call on the creator God and request the presence of peace.

Whelp, with all that, I write to express, today I am dwelling in peace, and it isn't a burst of it. Today it is like oxygen, ever flowing in and out of me, my mind, oh let me tell you, flowing free of clutter. I have never had a mind so de-cluttered, it caused me to concentrate on finding where the stuff went and if it was laying dormant somewhere, ready to jump out and surprise me; I do not want to go back to having a mind full of ruminating thoughts. I would much rather they come and go, making way for new thoughts, ideas, and experiences. To be completely open, this has been a considerable challenge for me. Loving the way I process things mentally.

I have struggled with it for years. It's like my mind would not let go of incidents or ideas, and at times it would get so crowded in my head, I would turn on loud music and drown them all out as if I was putting them on time out. (insert a laugh here)

I love my mind and the new way it processes information. I am enjoying this new way of gathering ideas and the expelling of these ideas. I am so used to be being mentally cramped that I thought, whelp, this is the way I will live forever – Mentally Exhausted all the time. I also learned, more like entirely accepted, I am an empath, which we will get into some other time.

Today is Friday Valentines Day, and I am grateful to report I can say not only do I love and appreciate myself, but I love how far my mind has come; it has arrived at a place where it knows how to skip rocks, say huh what you said? It can start from zero; it doesn't allow ruminating thoughts to be a thing any more; however, it does give way to archive memories and allows for me to every once in a while sit down and go down memory lane with a timer. Loving myself also means to love my mind. Cheers to many more moments of still thoughts and not going to war with myself.

O. Silvera
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